What to do...

stuck in a bit of a dilemma today. What does one do in this situation? Is it possible to completely adore some one who does not care for you in return? Yes. It is, we see it every day. And in some circumstances, I would say, stay with them, keeping going. But in others I would say, well, perhaps it is time to go.

I really wish that God would have given men and women the same "curse" when we disobeyed. I think this is where much of the problem stems from. Women are to long for their husbands, which doesn't sound like a curse initially, but eventually, when the man is focused else where and the woman is still dwelling on her man, it can become painful, the different perspectives...

I want to be swept off my feet. I want to be woed and adored and thought of and longed for. And instead I get ignored and hushed and brought around when comfortable. This is only my second real boyfriend. I've made the mistake of being in "non-commital" relationships, which just mens the guy wanted to have his cake and eat it too and I was too hurt and stubborn to demand that I deserved better. . .

I often use to tell my friend Jenna that we women make ourselves feel bad enough about ourselves as it is, without being in a dating relationship that made us feel bad...

I am so lonely these days. Which is probably good because it is making me cry out to Christ more than I have in a long time...ah, the jealousy of our God. In the same regard, it reminds me of all of my fears about myself. That guys like me because I am good and sweet and because they should, not because they actually like Me. Not many friends here in Colorado. No one to be broken with or feel safe around. I must keep up the exterior because no one here could handle it falling to pieces......