Christmas

The rustling of legos as my niece and nephew struggle to build a house together. My silent brother in law reading his new theology books. My happy sister putting together dessert and preparing tea. I miss my boyfriend tonight.

I love Christmas Eve. I love being cozy and safe with those I love. I love that my sister doesn't mind that I can't cook and is simply happy to have me eat her tasty food and do our dishes in lou of cooking. Boyfriend is in Seattle by himself again this Christmas, and that breaks my heart a little. While I will be working tomorrow at least I have the option of being with family before and after.

Super Ill today. I rarely get sick, but I've been running a fever of 102 and aching in more ways than I thought possible. I cried last night as I called my mom to tell her. I am exhausted and my body knows it.

Lord, your birthday often affects me more than your death. The humility into which you came into this world... Lord, You are so precious. and I forget to be thankful for your humility instead of just your law and judgement...Thank you Jesus for coming.