Peace

Even in the midst of this ambiguious time, I have peace. You know, that peace that even when you look at the worst of the worst of a situation, you still known that it is actually going to be ok. Everything will be ok. I can do only all that I can do in a situation. I have to pray and petition and trust and let it go. This doesn't mean I won't be sad or upset, I am human after all, but its nice to know that there is a bigger source out there for me. I have peace. In the midst of a wavering economy, family turmoil, broken relationships, deteriorating promises, I have peace.

On the other hand, I sleep alot. I sleep to avoid thinking about the things around me that I can't change, the limbo that my heart and mind are in. I sleep, waking and remembering and turning over to go to sleep again. This is unhealthy, but I am afraid of the alternative, which is to throw your soul out there, throw your desires out there and wait for them to be fulfilled, when there is no promise to how long that will be. So I sleep, and hope that my tears will be dried in the morning.